HE told me my body was longer mine. That I had to be and become whatever HE wanted. I didn’t agree to that. HE told me I had no choice. That HE was in charge. And if I didn’t like it, then HE would teach me to. That HE would punish me until I did.
I learned that lesson quickly.
I went with some friends to a bar. Gay, of course. HE had told me to meet him at a coffee shop. I got a text from him that said, “You should have obeyed”. I instantly felt a pain in my stomach like someone had stabbed me. I left my friends and went straight for the bathroom feeling like I was going to throw up. My clothes felt tight and so I threw them off of me. This small bar had a single male bathroom and so luckily I was alone. When I looked in the mirror I was shocked at what I saw happening.